Micro World to Bigger Globe

 I hail from a small town called Jamshedpur which is a small city in the east state of India.Its been almost 7 years since iv left home & moved to metros to make a career .In the midst of all this got married & Im now a member of this metro city.When I was small I always had this thought of staying in the best city with all aminities.Never thought of the world outside unless & until was actually a part of it.Iv seen girls go crazy and acting weird once they come from a small town to a metro.As if they were criminals imprisoned for life sentence & because of some good deed they are granted an earlier leave .

         It may sound a bit of rude for few but this is a fact experienced specially within the female bracket.Thank God iv always been able to save my self from getting retarted by seeing all the space around. The other thing surprising is that once they land to a metro they remove the small town name from their history of personal Details.Is it a crime to be born in a small town ?? For me Its never about size of the place but the right values & culture that is embedded within you & resistance to stick to them that should be irrespective of any geography.

I had this friend of mine who was from a small but a beautiful city in northern India. However Every other person that she met she gave  name of some different metropolitan city. What I Never understood was if  it was that  serious  offence being from a small town??. This mind set is created by the small towners  who are quiet huge in number.Thousands of people come from different parts of India to study in metros and quite a few remain to their roots actually. They live their 60% life Ashamed...Embarrassed...Trying to shy away  this small town tag which is like a Red mark in their Life's Assessment sheet.

The Big Question is  Will there ever be a Paradigm change to this?????Waiting to see that but haven't met anyone who could change the notion.


            

Introvert-Not My attrribute

Ok so Iv Been dealing with this set of people falling under the category of "Introverts".Earlier I had a feeling of Falling under the same category but as iv grown iv found my self better  than that  or may be evolved in years. As a child I had fewer friends,felt butterflies talking to teachers, Bizarre thoughts came when a extempore session was conducted. I use to shy away from many of my own relatives. Wait a Bit!!!......There is another thought to the same that I did have few but very good friends whom I had an open heart for. There were these category of people whom I could talk till hours and laugh my heart out. Infact for them the word "Introvert"could never go with me. Were these people Extrovert or was I somewehere in the middle.

      Today when I think about the same I feel good because when those people who had seen me from those Introvert eyes are confused & Surprised to be find me better. Though today I am the same  I do get those same shy feeling when talking to someone new . In these 10 years iv learned that there are many who may not fit in your "comfort zone category but we need to adjust "That's Life".Though I would  be lying when I say that "iv an open heart to everyone".No I Don't & Wont ever. Today also I keep getting taunts for not speaking to a certain set of people whom I don't consider that important  to me

 
 

To start with whats On My Mind

Ok so its been a huge day for me hectic, challenging, chaos, confusion, fun and yes how can I forget to mention erratically long.SO the topic I want to start off with is EGO. The one word that rules most of the men and women today where we have to either show that we are superior or the evil that creeps causing a turbulence in each one of ours life.

so the past six months I really did nothing concrete with respect to society's agenda of moving forward. But yes, I will not deny saying that I know myself way more than ever. Not only that , I know people more than ever.I recently figured out that if I can irritate myself at times then how do i blame others who ever fought with me.There have been times I never knew that I would be this bad.But sometimes felt that there were circumstances or the state of mind that had caught me there. The question  creeps my mind Day in & out  is Do I need to change? should I bring changes in my trait that has been causing problem to others?Yes I Do.
Our EGOs makes us one of those monsters the witch ,the Hindi serials type.But are we really concerned.We fight, we argue with our most near and dear ones and the biggest grievance is we keep rubbing our hands with that guilt feeling .The good keeps telling "Ya you should go .They have been your buddy you cannot stay a day without  & the other side the Evil "EGO"keeps howling"How can u even think of.I mean u are the Master Of the universe,The Queen,The Care Taker or the Evil Care taker.
        I keep thinking should I call him ,should I say sorry but than I think  the other way round BIG Deal!!Why cant I get a call or may be the creepy feeling "Will the person pick  the phone or not". And suppose  that if he doesn't I whose "Thee Queen Elizabeth"(that we believe we are) would have lost her dynasty.We don't realize that by realizing our mistakes we would not be  massacred.
   One unique characteristic about ego is that you know the other person doesn't want to talk to you(because of all the tongue lashes & Middle Finger) and for you he's still that important and you want to reach to  the same one whose hurt you no oops** your ego right??
 We fail to realize that these are those relations built fort life whom we can not let go and not for our Big E.G.O. We the educated ones fail to realize that what's lacking is transparency...we need not open everything about each other but at least tell each other what we  feel