Monday 22 June 2015

The Bulletined Psyched Manhood

I love weekends & in a country where 58% of population is directly or discursively working in private jobs weekends are bliss. I get up slow and head upright for my daily yoga concourse. I outset with a Surya Namskar, and suddenly discern how controversial yoga   these days is in news channel. While doing the Assans I take into recital which of them in anyway preaches anything even abutting to being religious. I take a lot of effort  to go into the remoteness  of each,  however abort  to understand how a physical workout  can orate  anything but  religion .It has nothing to do other than  refreshing body & soul and  giving some inner peace. Moving to the daily errands, I think of cooking something to cheat on, giving a complete gratification to my tongue too. I do think of the "Killer Maggi" but not in the sake of god even spell it out. Maggi is  meant only to kill rats & mices and nothing else(Byhearted).I follow the Media & the  horde and maneuver my mind to something healthier like  pasta(rather than the toxic  maggi).After all the stuffing and giving myself a break from the week long droning  diet,  I give  a call to an old friend in US. It’s always a joy to talk to someone so close to heart & yet so far. She said how desperate she was to visit us, but visa could be a botheration. I acquainted her how efficient our foreign department was these days .A mail to our honorable foreign minister could solve all hitches. However there  prompt work (which once was never expected), can be a reason for agony too. You need to fairly precise  on whom you are helping, cause  any high profile business man/religious guru can call for all the unwanted attention .After a long rap session  I take a bath and went straight to kneel down  in front of the almighty,  thank him for  all  the endurance to riot for another week at work,  and to handle a  Dracula in the cloak  of a boss .In the midst of my list of prayers, I  notice that the sai baba frame looked a little over sized for the temple and was somehow accommodated  to fit in there.As i elited  and tried to align it somewhere in the drawing room,I hear a yammer  from  husband  as to why was I  being partial  under the  influence of all the hullabaloo  of sai being god or not. I take a sigh to turn and say “Last thing that can happen to me was, getting influenced by this peeved news channel & if that would have been the case the first thing I would have replaced was not Sai baba but --- Leave :)

As I was thinking of wrapping half the day and planning to visit a friend, suddenly I hear a roaring  sound to which I creep under the table considering another earthquake plunges in completing the series of earthquake happening .I rush to hide inside the bed, while my husband is jolted and looking for cockroaches (since that has a similar effect as earthquake on me).However we burst out laughing when we grasp that it wasn’t the  earthquake but  the neighbors above trying to execute something everyday  .What is prudent in all this is that wev become so  readily clouted ,galvanized with  daily bulletin .The most  Torment part is, when you have a family member who is habitual  in inspecting  news on a repeated  basis &  for hours. Sometimes it’s bothering at a level when the same news goes on with three different aspects in three different Channels. I remember my dad asking me the Third question when I told him that I wanted to marry this guy. “Beta I hope he doesn’t watch or read newspaper for too long & in the jiff of being in love I said "No”. Now I realize that parents have a perspective so luminous to reality that it  is moulded to fit in future so well.

The live broadcasts dominates us so badly that we start intertwining & being reliant that all good, bad, true or false are been seen from there context.   A day is wrecked abruptly, affecting us introspectively with everything we do. .It’s vital to be cognizant about the happenings, but being aware is more than enough & you hardly get anything by seeing the howling and screeching on a rather baseless subject.

Being communal is something that comes in our kitty inherited & genetically inclined right from the time of our forefathers. It’s always been significant in Indians & Indian politics. However its  comical  & sometimes irking  to see this on a mundane basis .We talk of India being America someday, but dude Americans never in their dreams will  blame a farmers death, a women rape or even a Exercise session to be Hindu,muslim or  Christian.


I can never change the mindset of this world but at least pray for these news hefty creatures in the name of husbands, who in the world think that just news shouldn't be left that way, rather digging the mystery behind a known or rather obscure issue is imperative. If I have the superpowers to recall this birth in my next, I would surely want a husband no matter how ugly, lethargic or poor he is to not be a news crazy lunatic.:)



Wednesday 10 June 2015

The Disheveled Love :)

What is Love?

A Child: When Mamma gives me lot of chocolates & Toys (the cutest kind)
A school girl: Love & break ups Hurts, heart aches, Bruises (And I’m ready for another one)

A teenager: Being attracted to another person, whether it be emotionally, and mentally, but physically as well. You feel like you connect with them a lot. Even though we fight in relationships, it makes it stronger. You’re missing them when away without talking with them for a while, and they're always on your mind
(Bla Bla it’s more like “Of course I love you...Until I find someone better")
A  College going Adult: I believe it is a purpose to live for, Love is an intense desire to protect another, Desire to be with them, Bringing joy to them (And I’m ready to permanently hook up because I have roamed the planet & I never in the world would marry the choice of my parents)
An Elderly Person: It’s a spiritual connection with another person like love for God (Ya ya after going through all above youl be concluding on this now)

The context of love is wrong & misinterpreted, we are only able to connect it with the one whom we wish to make ours, and our paradoxical Sex.Love subsequently after this one relation is not conveyed. The reasons vary ranging from the stiff costumed society where showing love is still a disregarded word. We don't show it too our parents for we feel we are sophisticated individuals, who don't have any urgency to do this. We don't show it to our friend cause the psyche self admiration creeps in, we don’t parade to our life partners cause again we are shy & reluctant to & we don’t need to (They are already ours), We don’t show it for our country cause we look ancient displaying it. We fail to understand that the love for our lover is so superficial, which is either for a need physical & mental, also for the insecurity that they are not compelled or rather necessitated being ours. The relations were we are compelled we hardly care cause we are cognizant of their going nowhere. We live in a greedy world & we the greedy creatures living with greedy motive and greedy persona. We think only about ourselves chasing for what we don’t have & always taking for granted what we have. Love too is poisoned with the pool of narcissism.

It’s extremely traumatic to see the varying atrocities that love goes through .A 22 year old girl tried to commit suicide & the reason is startling & poignant one. She was jilted by the boy for whom she had been crazy for last 5 year’s .Her parents should have killed themselves, because there 22 year old profuse love was scorned for a 5 year old partisan affiliation. They are Sick people, need to get counseled & educated on how a physically impaired woman not able to run or do any normal activity should have killed herself, when she got conscious with it. We have more pragmatic logic to destroy the valued mortal soul that we are so indiscreet about. A 16 year old boy falls in love with his first cousin sister, and is planning to run from home to have a better future (better or a worse one?), A 46 year old women confesses she was in love with a 20 year old boy who was his sons friend (Reaching the epitome of psychos must say).It’s crucial that apart from sex education, people need to be disciplined on what the disillusioned and actual love is.

Love is an overstated phenomenon which has been hyped since decades. Though the modern times have taken it to the level of pudginess & dowdiness. If anyone is sad the first logic that springs up is "Heart Broken” .I mean guys there are more sensitive issues to be sad about. Why so much of Dramaturgy? Love is a scarce feeling, that at some or the other point transpires and is beautiful to experience. Please let it be a one in a life time experience. Love is not about running from home, or falling for any road side intruder, love is about emotions, the same that we have for our beloved clan of people. There is this one person for whom we would love to be a better person, to care & to be cared for, to be understood & to understand. That is the reason they say that we don't fall but rise in love. Loves more than taking is about giving, cause Giving has its own charm for the person whom we are so much in awe of.